t h e y d o n ' t k n o w m e

yeah!

What are you afraid of? Don’t you even dare to say afraid of the sky falls. Have u tried living in fear almost everyday? Thinking about the same damn thing every morning and it keeps haunting you for the rest of the day? But when the day finally comes, it feels like somebody just lifts away the heavy burden off your shoulders and thank you is all you can reciprocate. But sometimes, some people just won’t take it as a lesson learnt and the exact same mistake gets all over their heads again.

Frankly, I pray only when a trouble gets into me and I don’t find myself holding my hands close, whispering thank you for the things I’ve been blessed. And I’m ashamed.

The day has finally come and thank you for it.

posted by JoannE @ 11:37 PM 2 comments

happy go lucky!!

my dad is in a bad mood today ever since dinner as claimed by my sister. my dad reads newspaper in his room and he usually has newspaper piling up like mountain in his room. god knows what he was pissed at that he threw the whole load of newspaper down the staircase just a while ago. poor brother had to pick them up but serves him right. he should have knew bringing the newspaper down once in a while is his job =P on the other hand, i'm in a rather good mood, probably because i just woke up from sleeping. not just sleeping but sleeping on a rainy day =)

i had to drive back from college in a heavy rain, my vision was so blur and all i wanted was to reach home, safely. today is my last day of semester which means my finals is drawing nearer and nearer. thankfully, i only have one paper this sem and i know i have to do well. i don't get to share my past results with anyone, not my friends but once i got my results recently, i showed it to my dad. i was proud and surprised with my results hoping that i could share it with my family members and everyone i love. i wasn't sure if my dad was happy but i could somehow sense that he's proud of me. friends asked is if i failed and if i said no, i had good results, they'll probably thought i was showing off. so i just said no. i know i'm the kind of person who always want to win, be it a sports competition or academically. my mum gives me the inspiration and encourgement to prove to our relatives that we are not weak people and now my brothers are probably annoyed by me, always asking them to study. but i can't help it, i just want them to feel proud of themselves one day.

i think i'm thinking too much =.=

in half a month time, boon will be going to Kang to work and study at the same time. its sad that he'll be staying there but i have to say, i do miss the times we had when he was in Nilai. all i can hope is that he will excel in the things he's going to do there, work or study.

don't worry, i will understand : )


i'm gonna join the KFC contest for a HOME MAKEOVER!! even if i have to eat a whole barrel of chicken!! pls la, give me ONLY drumstick!! ; )

posted by JoannE @ 9:21 PM 2 comments

who knows?

i'm so tired and i'm losing my patience.. i don't know what's my direction, hoping someone would write a list down for what i should do.

"what did i do wrong" i asked. "what did i do wrong" was what u reciprocated. where is the root of our arguement? how did it all started? my house phone rang and i heard my name being called. could it be you? are u gonna make the first move? i ran down hoping that it was you but it wasn't you, the call wasn't even for me. i was just giving myself false hope. i knew you wouldn't call, you wouldn't make the first move anymore, oh so i thought. i want to make things right again but the greater part of my mind say no. i didn't cry this time but the damned tears just had to flow down when i was lying on my bed. i really didn't cry, not as bad as last time.

maybe if i was determined enough to buy you dim sum for breakfast this morning to make your day, things wouldn't have turned out so bad in the evening.
maybe...

posted by JoannE @ 4:50 AM 0 comments

happy results, a little impact

posted by JoannE @ 5:29 AM 0 comments